Stay a victim or go live your life.
Today is my second birthday.
Memories, emotions and pictures from a time, that slowly fades away as the years go by.
Experiences that have been hard to handle are less painful, you learn to live with your ‘scars’, but it hasn’t always been this way for me on the 20th of May. This day still stands very clear in my memory, it is exactly 10 years ago today, but I still remember and feel every second.
It is not that I walk around feeling sad or depressed about the day though. The day have instead turned into a day where I can reflect over my life and become even more aware of how lucky I was. It reminds me that life can end at any moment and that I need to get the very best out of every second I breathe.
I am a big believer of feeling all the aspects of a tragedy, feel every bit of the pain and discomfort it brings. Become more aware of who you are, with all the ups and downs that happened during your life (believe my I’ve had a lot).
You need to feel life to the fullest in both the good times and the bad. It’s okay to feel sorry for ourselves, lying down on the floor in the fetus position, crying with a glass of wine in one hand and too much chocolate in the other one, it’s okay! But at one point we have to get back up and take back the responsibility of our own life again.
It was really hard for me, it took me about 3 years before I became aware enough about myself, that I could decide to either stay a victim or go live my life. To get back on track is the hardest part, because there is only one way and that’s forward. Now is the time to finish the journey, time to let go and forgive.
This is where we learn to release the pain and start looking at the positive things that used to be hard. Life goes on, daily life sets in and it is a beautiful thing to feel life again. We have work, friends and family that we need to look after and suddenly all the stuff we kept hanging on to, fades away in the distance.
If we just turn on the gas and never look back a little bit, then everything can go wrong, so stay aware. That’s why I think that it is incredibly important to have a reminder, a date, a song or a piece of jewelry to help us remember the THING that changed everything.
The day we were forced to look at life with different eyes, the day we suddenly had different goals in life. This is the day I call my second birthday, and it is 10 years ago today.
(written in 2016) Read my story here.
Tell me about your second birthday ?